Appendix 1 (MP3 format):
Passages
from Mary's Interview Sorted by the Voice Assigned by the Clinically
Sophisticated Raters
Instructions: Click in the right column to hear the recorded passage.
| Voice number | Passage order in interview | Passage order on CD | Target voice speaks underlined text. | Click to download and play |
| 1 | 30 | Ex.1 | I don't eat as much, I don’t eat a lot of pork any more | Prototype 1 |
| 1 | 2 | 1 | I think it's something that's in the back of my mind a lot, although I don’t just sit around -yes, sit around just thinking about it, actually, sometimes I think I actually try not to think about it, especially like my personal life, because I don't have a boyfriend right now, so I think I try to | Voice 1-1 |
| 1 | 4 | 16 | Well it's a pretty sure thing that you know within, yeah, within the next five years I'm going to have a career outside of… | Voice 1-2 |
| 1 | 8 | 22 | I think it puts me in a place where I'm looking for or expecting new relationship to emerge or come from some place, so it's like… | Voice 1-3 |
| 1 | 28 | 49 | It was something about sitting at a table, eating my food, I'm sure I would've felt nervous. And not having anybody to talk to! And I eat alone at my house all the time. | Voice 1-4 |
| 1 | 29 | 60 | When my brother and I would get home from school, dinner would be ready and it would be time to eat, talk about our day, argue with my brother, whatever. But it was done together and my mom would wait for us. | Voice 1-5 |
| 1 | 37 | 52 | In many ways I want to have that (sigh) that strength, but (laugh), you can see there is a "but" coming up, I think I, I really struggle with being as selfless as, what I call as… | Voice 1-6 |
| 1 | 39 | 33 | I have a strong disrespect for that, and I think it's because I have seen or thought of people like mooching off of my mum, because I see that | Voice 1-7 |
| 1 | 49 | 8 | I like black people from the South better because I experience them as being nicer, they're more open, they're more friendly, more connected… | Voice 1-8 |
| 1 | 52 | 23 | I was in an undergraduate college, it was like only like less two hours away from home | Voice 1-9 |
| 1 | 60 | 42 | It was during middle school too, so we were going through this hormonal developmental stage. Maybe just beginning to notice boys, and stuff like that. And like some guys liked me and stuff, so that was not an easy experience, because I really wasn't that interested in guys then. I was still like very much an introvert, and I really liked my girlfriends, and girly type of things like that. | Voice 1-10 |
| 2 | 41 | Ex. 2 | I was so mad! And I think it was only recently that I, I realized it, and I was talking to her on the phone, I don't know if I was an undergrad or I was here. I'm like, oh my god, you're such a survivor. | Prototype 2 |
| 2 | 9 | 14 | I might meet a new guy, I'm like - oh, maybe? So it makes it exciting | Voice 2-1 |
| 2 | 17 | 32 | Because it happened. Like, and it was something that probably in terms of content, or in terms of exactly what happened | Voice 2-2 |
| 2 | 27 | 31 | You know, I'm sure I know but I can't quite put my finger on it | Voice 2-3 |
| 2 | 31 | 2 | and my mum puts pork in almost everything, and I think she would really try to accommodate my eating habits, but it's like you know what, don't worry if it's too much of a hassle. Because pork would just be in everything. We didn’t' even have a pork meat and pork would be in the vegetables. I mean, just things like that it's just too much a part of everyday cooking rituals | Voice 2-4 |
| 2 | 32 | 58 | Oh
my gosh, I don't know I think for so long, and even now, she's like my
hero to a point. I think she's really strong |
Voice 2-5 |
| 2 | 33 | 4 | Because I think so much of her life she lived for me, and my brother, - to make sure that we were cared for. She was a single parent till I was about nine, yeah, I think she got married when I was about nine or ten, so I mean she really had to struggle. | Voice 2-6 |
| 2 | 34 | 51 | when I was a little girl there was this guy. This dude wasn't even related to us, he would always come by around dinnertime - to eat! And my mum knew he was just coming by, and she never told him that he couldn't come. And he was older than both me and my brother, just some kid that she knew probably from when she was substitute teaching | Voice 2-7 |
| 2 | 36 | 41 | I don’t know I think that after I realized like how giving she was and is, it makes me want to give to her more. I think maybe that's, I'm aware that's become my way of showing that I love you, with her anyway. Yeah, I think she's really an amazing woman. And in so many ways I want to have that (sigh) that strength, (laugh) but, you can see there is a but | Voice 2-8 |
| 2 | 53 | 25 | I had never, this might sound so crazy, but I had never been around so many black people in my life. I was like, oh my god, look at all those black people, and I thought it was great because at first I was concerned that they wouldn't accept me. | Voice 2-9 |
| 2 | 59 | 21 | And I didn't know what it was, but I was afraid to talk about it in practicum because I was like, oh, I'm just doing a horrible job with this girl. I'm not taking care of her and I don't know how. And I keep wanting to go to sleep,- and I never did process with my supervisor or with anyone, like I've never even talked about it before what it would've been | Voice 2-10 |
| 3 | 22 | Ex. 3 | I don't know, I guess there is still a lot of self-exploration in terms of relationship issues, about companions | Prototype 3 |
| 3 | 1 | 50 | and I don't know what it will involve - I think it's a little scary, too | Voice 3-1 |
| 3 | 7 | 5 | I think it concerns me, like - you know, it's not so much, and I've said before, it's not so much that | Voice 3-2 |
| 3 | 11 | 54 | I don't know, - girl, I don't know | Voice 3-3 |
| 3 | 12 | 15 | I'm like, well, what does it mean, for me? I don't know. So I try to make meaning out of it | Voice 3-4 |
| 3 | 19 | 43 | I don't know if it's that I have a really naïve view that well you know, if two people love each other then it's going to work out regardless | Voice 3-5 |
| 3 | 50 | 53 | So I think I'd really, I wouldn't mind going back to South, somewhere | Voice 3-6 |
| 3 | 54 | 48 | I'm more comfortable taking care of other people then having them take care of me. Um, I just, to use an extreme, I am about to say that I just never have easily let people in. | Voice 3-7 |
| 3 | 55 | 17 | Of course there have been girlfriends I share things with. And things like this, a really good relationship or whatever. But I guess, there is just some part of me, I don't know what all it is, that I just don't want to share with anyone else right now. I don't feel safe in sharing it with anyone else right now. | Voice 3-8 |
| 3 | 65 | 30 | Yeah (interviewer's voice: "so you didn't like that") I thought, I thought it was really sad, too, that they didn't think very highly of themselves but they thought highly of me | Voice 3-9 |
| 3 | 66 | 24 | you would think, you would think that, you know, when I got older I just wondered, like… | Voice 3-10 |
| 4 | 43 | Ex. 4 | (Interviewer: "how do you feel about having been an object of her sacrifices?") I think a couple of times I may have felt guilty (laughter) but I don't know how much I thought about it, and I don't know if that's because I don't want to think about it | Prototype 4 |
| 4 | 6 | 29 | I'm thinking, oh well, that'll give me more time to, uh, work on my career, really focus, and uh, I think that's one, and I think it's probably a lot of BS, I'm like, what do I want to do, and… | Voice 4-1 |
| 4 | 15 | 10 | I guess so, and I had not considered myself to be that way in the past, I really thought that I was considerate of others, and took their views and their perspectives into consideration, and so giving, and so nurturing, but I realized that I really have a point where I say, you know, you need to leave me alone | Voice 4-2 |
| 4 | 20 | 13 | I think it's going to work out regardless, - which is what I think. He disagreed. Which, you know… | Voice 4-3 |
| 4 | 21 | 59 | Which you know, it didn't work out, so I guess he didn't love me (laughter) - anyway (laughter), you know so it's all his fault, but, I don't know | Voice 4-4 |
| 4 | 26 | 45 | sometimes I like my cookies - when I don't burn them up | Voice 4-5 |
| 4 | 47 | 35 | Right now I'm pretty comfortable but right now I'm talking about it, I'm not experiencing it. I guess it kind tells me though (laughter) that I don't want to experience it anymore, or…(Interviewer: How often do you go there) (sigh) not enough | Voice 4-6 |
| 4 | 48 | 20 | (Interviewer: "where are you thinking of going after you graduate…") Oh, I don't know, like I said before, that oh it really depends on what goes on in my life, on whether I have a man in my life at the time, and right now, since it doesn't seem like I I'm going to have a man in my life, I've been telling myself, I'm pretty open to go almost anywhere where it's not really cold. I wouldn't want to go to Dakotas or anything like that | Voice 4-7 |
| 4 | 51 | 44 | You know, I didn't realize that I was homesick for my family and for the southern culture, I just thought, ooh, it's this place (laughter), I was like, it's this place | Voice 4-8 |
| 4 | 56 | 3 | I might meet a new guy, I'm like--oh, maybe? So it makes it exciting | Voice 4-9 |
| 4 | 58 | 34 | And I don't even think that, I don't feel like I'm a superwoman, I don't think that I should be a superwoman; at the same time, I really think, I need to take care of them. | Voice 4-10 |
| 5 | 24 | Ex. 5 | if it's something that just is resolved, but I just want to open it back up (interviewer: "Umm") I don't want to leave it alone | Prototype 5 |
| 5 | 3 | 6 | I have like expectations there (Interviewer: Uh-hum), that I will have a career, | Voice 5-1 |
| 5 | 5 | 28 | Well it's a pretty sure thing that, you know, within, yeah, within the next five years I'm going to have a career outside of being a career student or professional student, I'm going to have like a job, whereas… | Voice 5-2 |
| 5 | 10 | 11 | Yeah… I really want an answer in terms of, and I want an answer to be that I will have a man in my life, and that I will have a great relationship, that I'm gonna love him to death and that he's gonna love me even more. I want that to be the answer and I want to know that. | Voice 5-3 |
| 5 | 13 | 40 | I - know I don't want to get married right now, I just want to know that I will. | Voice 5-4 |
| 5 | 14 | 57 | I'm thinking about your list, and I link to that, it's like past relationships… | Voice 5-5 |
| 5 | 38 | 37 | And I think that's because I'm more selfish, because I'm accustomed to people giving to me, especially her, and I don't know how willing I would be to go without | Voice 5-6 |
| 5 | 42 | 38 | I think I got mad when I realized or when I thought that she had been lacking because of it (interviewer: "Uh ") | Voice 5-7 |
| 5 | 44 | 7 | and I don't know if that's because I don't want to think about it, I may think about how much I may have caused my mom to be without | Voice 5-8 |
| 5 | 45 | 46 | or it's because I just took on and integrated this theme or this idea that I am the receivee. I receive and others give. So I don't really know. | Voice 5-9 |
| 5 | 46 | 26 | Yeah, I don't know if I don't think about it because I'm comfortable with it, or I don't think about it because I don't want to think about it because it might make me uncomfortable | Voice 5-10 |
| 6 | 62 | Ex. 6 | And maybe that's why now I'm like, you know, if you like me, talk to me, if you don't, you need to leave me alone. And it's really just that simple. | Prototype 6 |
| 6 | 16 | 36 | I realized that I really have a point where I just t to say, you know, you really need to leave me alone. Or you need to do what I want you to do, or go away, because I'm not about to share my space… to a point that hurt me too. | Voice 6-1 |
| 6 | 18 | 19 | And I got to a point where I was like, you know, I'm not willing to compromise on that. And you weren't either. So that means we don't need to be together. Bye. | Voice 6-2 |
| 6 | 23 | 56 | You know, I really am. And I mean, not just analytically like (interviewer: "aha") I'm thinking, you know we need to get together and talk about this with my ex. So that I can figure out me and you. | Voice 6-3 |
| 6 | 25 | 47 | You know, I really do. It's like I want to say, you know, let's go down to room 28 and you sit in that chair (laughter) so it's like, so that we can have a session. Cuz we need a session. Yeah… | Voice 6-4 |
| 6 | 35 | 39 | Not only for me and my brother but like for other people too. And I looked at her several times and thought, you know what, I wouldn've done that (laughter). Like how can you be so giving, you shouldn't go without for other people who should provide for themselves | Voice 6-5 |
| 6 | 40 | 9 | People like mooching off of my mom, because I see that, you know, I think she is probably hungrier than what's on her plate, or you know, or I'd think, I think you need a new sweat, but you know, you don't have this, because you're giving to other people | Voice 6-6 |
| 6 | 57 | 2 | I think if anything is frightening it's like, ok, so I'll make myself vulnerable. Are you going to be strong enough or whatever enough to handle that? You know what, I don't think you can. But that's OK. | Voice 6-7 |
| 6 | 61 | 18 | They didn't like me and it was so stupid because one day they didn't like me and then the next day they would be talking to me, and I'm like, you know, this is just stupid | Voice 6-8 |
| 6 | 63 | 55 | I can be around you all day, and if I feel some kind of tension, or… | Voice 6-9 |
| 6 | 64 | 27 | if I feel some kind of tension, or something that's ingenuine about the interaction, then you know what, we need to stop interacting. We can just do our work, sit here all day long, and don't say anything to each other. | Voice 6-10 |
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